I don't have a lot of time. Time eludes me. Well, actually I have the same amount of time everyone else does but for some reason my management of it has grown terr-- …no, rather, it has shrunk. I'm at a loss.
Everything in me wants to share the blame with my two sweet, lovable, busybody boys. But, if I am being honest, I just can't. They are a part of my life and I devote most of my day to building them up. So what I have not done is learn how to manage my time or perhaps…maybe J and I - we have not developed the ability to say "no."
"No I don't have time for that…" "No, we may not be able to take that on this time…" "No, we may need to meet another day…or in about 6 months… or something…"
We keep saying yes.
BUT … to be fair, that's only because we are used to doing that. Saying Yes…and really being able to follow through with that. Now, it's all different and we are still not used to it. So we keep saying inviting more into our day, and then quickly realize we are just not equipped the same way we used to be.
BUT THEN… when I scan my emails and see a blog or two where some supermom is doing everything with their kids, AND blogging, AND meal planning AND staying trim {I just threw that in there for some dramatic flair, but you all know what I'm talking about} I just throw my hands up in the air and think, how do they do it? How do they do it all and not get burnt out?
Yes, and then my sweet, patient, and lovingly husband tries to remind me that this just isn't the case and that all moms probably feel the same way… but I refuse to believe him. I mean, look at their blogs. They seem to have it all down pat.
:: sigh ::
Yes, then again he says if they read my blog, they may feel the same way about me. But see, if you are the wise and truly insightful audience that I imagine you to be, you would notice that it takes me months at a time to post a word or two on this thing, thus concluding that I am not able to manage my lot.
No?
ANywHoo..
I like to rant and I haven't written in a while and I figured in an effort to be honest and authentic, even here, I would share. Here's the thing: I like to write every day, and I miss it. Truly, I do. However, falling asleep at 8pm - sometimes without a third meal - doesn't help. So as I go through this process of figuring out a way to manage my day better or get back into some sort of routine, trust me. I'll be around.
